Yesterday I posted a poem that Ann Betz, author of Coaching the Spirit, wrote specifically for me, in response to some comments I had made to her. I felt honored and seen and grateful.
A few days later, she wrote and shared another poem, one that was supposedly not just for me. But oh my, it still spoke directly to my heart and soul, spoke of a dilemma I’ve experienced more often than I’d like to reveal. That’s the sign of a great poet, I guess. So I decided to share this one, too. Perhaps you’ll feel the same way, as though she’s speaking just to you, too. Maybe she is.
I just want to be enough
you know, I’m tired
I just want to know myself
as enough
not too much or too little
I want to be enough
because, you see
I’m big and bold and fearless
in many ways
and that scares some
who question their ability
to measure up
I also can be
small and scared and lost
and I don’t want to pretend
this isn’t true
in order to maintain
a persona I’ve created
I’m lovely, breathtaking and timeless
some of the time
worn-out, plain and old
on other days
you can count on me
to be more truthful
than anyone you’ve ever known
unless I’m not
I’ll hold the mirror up to myself
to see what I really am
unless I don’t
and I’ll never blame, get angry
or lose myself in anxiety
unless I do
I just want to be enough
in all my beauty
flaws
and complexity
I want to see myself as
enough


